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My heart hurts
My soul is weak
I have words
But I’m unable to speak
Sadness pours out
From every pore
And wants to shout
So you will hear
The pain so near
As it reverberates
From every tear
Telling stories
Telling truth
Of all that’s happened
Since my youth
The actions
The words
The common
The absurd
The all
The nothing
The history
Of me…
Note: My Daddy and I sang this song at church when I was 4 years old. I was too short to reach the mic, so I stood on a folding chair (what were we thinking?!!) Anyway, I’m still here and able to tell the stories of the absurd things from my youth. My Daddy passed on and this is my 2nd Christmas without him. I miss him something awful! “But if we are wise we know that there’s always tomorrow, lean on me….”, this will always be our song.
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Love that song and your poem. Right after my dad passed I wrote such grief filled poetry. It helped. I clawed my way out of the worst of the grief one word at a time. Hugs.
Hugs back to you…he sang and raised money for homeless at Christmas time so this is my sad moments…thankful for the few songs his friends have put up on YouTube…unfortunately no Christmas songs were video recorded
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its hard to have a parent that passes…everything that happens to us…that history…all the stories…they are what made us til now…and what will carry us on from here…
Yes, yes, yes, yes…thank you Brian for all you do and have done at dVerse. I know you and your crew will have a lovely few weeks off…cheers 🙂
Beautiful words. My dad’s passing blew me sideways.
I have no doubt he is with you.
Blessings
Thank you beautiful one 🙂 your Daddy is with you too…
I remember you telling me about singing with your Dad. I, too, have memories of singing with my Dad. I will cherish those memories the most. It’s so hard to lose a parent…it’s seems like your wonderful memories and your poetry is helping you to cope. Hugs to you!
Thank you for remembering that long winded post I gave you that day…you are so sweet! Thank you for letting me pour my heart out that day, it was the first time on WP that I had mentioned him…he sang so there are many songs that remind me of him…Bill Withers is one of my favorite reminders of my Dad.
I’m so sorry about your Daddy, but I’m glad for what you must have had.
Thank you…yes and for what my children had…I’m not one to glamorize him as perfect but we did have wonderful moments. This is just one. A very fond moment through the eyes of my four year old self…
Never lose your 4 yr old self!
I won’t 😉 even if I embarrass the heck out of my babies!!
Way to go! Works for me.
Me too 😉
Beautiful and touching. Love the song and the post, with the obvious emotion and many, many meaningful stories behind it. One of my favorite quotes: “Memories are like stars in the black night of sorrow.” May you find comfort and joy in gazing at many bright stars this season 🙂
Thank you beautiful one for saying…yes, I’ll hold on. I need to find his Christmas album and play it 🙂
my dad died when i was 17… we didn’t get along very well but still…losing a parent is so tough…
I’m sad about you loss and the relationship…my Daddy was far from perfect…I hope there is even one beautiful memory that you have…one is all you need!
I’m sorry your dad isn’t here with you. Your poem beautifully conveys anguish and pain.
Thank you my beautiful for being here…I was pulled away this morning…now I’m able to finish reading everything. You are a gift to me 🙂
You are fortunate to have such a wonderful song to carry on in the spirit of your Dad.
Yes! Thank you so much for peeking in and listening 🙂 there will always be a time when we need somebody to lean on….
so much pain this time of the year
This year is better than last…I didn’t see him Christmas seasons because he was singing and raising money for homeless people in his part of the country…
What a beautiful memory of your dad. Peace
Thanks beautiful one for peeking in over here and saying 🙂 cheers!
I’m sorry to hear about your dad. He must have such a wonderful father. You are blessed. 🙂 That is a lovely poem up there.
Thank you…I’m glad to have memories that are good and yes putting the pain on paper helps…thank you again for peeking in 🙂 cheers!
This really flows and I am sorry to hear about your loss.
Thank you for peeking in…I’m doing better this afternoon…my best friend in my town took me out. He’s 87 and a widower for 8 years. His loss is different but he understands and is such a gift 🙂
How sweet you sang with your dad … what a lovely memory and poem.
And you’re right in your comment … one good memory is all that’s needed sometimes. I will hold onto that thought. Thanks for sharing 🙂
I still don’t sound like he did…he could sing….I miss when he visited us (my 10 children and I) he would sing sitting next to us in church, yes his voice projected and my children were embarrassed because of attention but that’s OK…now they have memories of their Grandpa so it makes me happy 🙂
I felt your loss and grief, also sensed your strength. Christmastime can be so sad when we are going through that grieving period. You gave a piece of your heart and spirit here. Know that time will begin to fill that hole and the memories will make you smile through your tears then and it’s always good to share the good memories as you did with your memory of your dad and this song. Wishing you a healing Christmas and a better year next year.
Thank you for your wonderful comment…I’m feeling better this afternoon/evening…the support here on WP has been such a gift! It’s only been a year and half since he passed, this is the 2nd Christmas…I’m sure it will be easier even still next year…and yes, it’s wonderful to have good memories…that one is just one of the many…I’m glad I have them and will cherish them all.
O loosing your dad is something terrible..was now many years ago.. but still it means finally growing up in a sense… at least for me..
I understand what you mean…but once a Daddy’s girl, always a Daddy’s girl…if you have daughters you understand. Thank you for peeking in and I hope you enjoy the break from dVerse…will you be other places or are you taking a break from everything?
Sorry to hear of your dad and the pain his death has brought you. Losing a parent hurts so much – but your dad lives on in you – you are his gift and he yours. His love will always be with you.
Hugs.
Anna :o]
Anna, thank you for peeking in and commenting. Yes he is here…so many times I know it well 🙂 and to see him in my babies is precious too! Cheers to you and your beautiful soul 🙂
That is a great song. Bill Withers is brilliant..sorry for your loss…be thankful you enjoyed such a close relationship with your father. Some losses leave gaps that can never be filled.
Yes…I love Mr. Withers! You are correct about loss, I’m glad for the sweet memories. Cheers 🙂
It’s tough without them . It’s true it hurts less with time, but always tough.
Yes…thank you for peeking in and saying 🙂 cheers beautiful one.
Oh my friend, my dear. I am so sorry for your loss and for your hard December. I say that knowing how hard it is to lose someone not only at Christmas but any day.
My dad died suddenly when I was 26 (17 yrs ago) and it never does get easier, it just becomes the way you remember. Now with the sudden death of Ben I feel like my heart is ripped from my chest again, as if it took 17 yrs to get ready for another loss, the ache wasn’t pulsing and aching anymore..until now.
So when I say, I know. I do. I know and I’m abiding with you.
this was beautiful, even in the ache.
HUGS
XO
Oh Kir, Wow! I guess I didn’t realize that you lost your Daddy too. Uggg, all I can say is I’m sad with you…thank goodness for better days, one day at a time or even one step at a time.
15 minutes at a time some days, but if you ever need a shoulder or someone who is feeling what you feel, come find me. I am a good listener and I’ve been where you are, I promise to help your heart heal.
You too…anytime! Thank you for your outstretched arm 🙂